Layin' Low

I decided to lay low the month of August for personal reasons...moving mainly. My sister's bf's place is finally coming available so we're moving down this week. I'm kicking into 3rd gear now.. I've experimented a bit and know what and where I want to be in the next 6 months. Goals are goals..dreams are dreams...I walk the line found in between.

Stay tuned for some amazingness :D

The Happy Drunk Couple...

That's a change of pace...Typically Paul and I get along wayyyyyyy better sober. Fun night. That's all.

The happiest place on Earth

They say that Disney Land is "The happiest place on earth." Obviously, they've never been in your arms.

The other night, as Paul and I were getting comfy in bed, we were talking about how the vacation was going. We were the only couple who didn't really get in a fight the whole week...I told him that I was glad to be there with him and he responded by asking, "But do you think we a happy together?" At first I thought maybe he wasn't sure if we were happy but then it became quite apparent that he was merely asking if I was happy. I told him that I couldn't be happier with how far we have come and I couldn't be more in love with him. He responded, "Good, I only wanted to know that you are happy."

This really made me think that maybe I don't show it enough and then he made it even more clear...Even though the other couples had a few arguments they are very touchy and lovey dovey. This has never been the way we do things but he was just making sure that I knew how much he loves me and that he doesn't love me any less.

Silly boy..I love him.

Life is like tango...

"Life is like Tango... sad, sensual, sexy, violent and quiet."

This quote describes me better than anything I have ever come across. A photographer told me this today in a critique forum on Model Mayhem. I feel like I have done my job with my portfolio when someone, without even knowing me, can sum me up in a quote.

Triumphs in the Kitchen

Tonight I tried cooking fish for the first time :) It was a total success, so I thought I'd spread my recipe!

I call it Cajun Baked Tilapia :)

Ingredients you'll need:

4 Tilapia Filets
Cajun Seasoning
Lemon & Pepper Seasoning
Spinach
Red pepper
Yellow Pepper
Sweet Onion
Whole Grain Rice
Veggie of your choice
Smart Balance Omega 3 Butter Spread


Preheat oven to 400 degrees
Bread 4 Tilapia filets in organic whole wheat flour
Sprinkle Lemon & Pepper and Cajun Seasonings over filets
Melt 4 tbsp of Smart Balance Omega 3 Butter spread and pour into baking dish
Place Tilapia into baking dish and heat in the oven for 10 minutes

In the meantime...
Bring 1 cup of water and 1/2 cup of whole grain rice to a boil
Cut 1/3 of a red pepper and 1/3 of a yellow into thin slices
Cut and even amount of sweet onion into thin slices
Start heating a vegetable of your choice as a side item (green beans are great!)
After the water in the rice has nearly boiled away, turn down the heat to a simmer and cover
Keep and eye on the rice and once water is completely absorbed turn off the heat and keep covered

Check the Tilapia after ten minutes
Flip each filet and sprinkle both seasonings on this side
Continue baking for 10-15 minutes

Melt 1 tbsp of Smart Balance spread in a medium skillet
Heat sliced peppers and onion on high, stirring regularly
Season lightly with lemon & pepper seasoning

Once the Tilapia is done take out of the oven
Place 2 fist fulls of fresh spinach in the skillet with the peppers
Stir for one minute and remove from heat

Now that the hard part is done...let's dress the dish!

Place a large spoonful of rice on a plate and tilapia over the rice
Peppers, onions, and spinach is piled on top of tilapia
Veggies on the side!!

Enjoy!! :)

Does this make my butt look big? GOOD!

UGH!!! Nothing fits me anymore...even my itty bitty bikini I bought earlier this summer. I've been eating healthy and working out when I can and the results are amazing. Especially now that I am nearly half way through a 7-day complete cleanse. I can't believe how much of a difference I can see on the 3rd day :) I do worry that I am losing my butt so I have been skipping the elevator and taking the stairs(7 floors!!!) instead. I hear stair climbing works as a good butt lifter ;)

Paul and I got in a little tif earlier about money...AGAIN. This time was because I had to break it to him that I will probably be a little short on money for the move at the end of the month. He flipped strictly based on the fact that I haven't really been able to save anything and everything I do make gets spent and now I wanted to buy a bathing suit for our vacation. I had to explain to him that everything I do spend it on is necessary, even a bathing suit since all of mine are too big...it's not like I'm buying stuff I don't need (like I reallyyyy want to!). He ended up being understanding and let me buy the bathing suit :) And he's willing to cover what ever I can't afford for the move. When he returned from the gym...he found me on the balcony eating my yogurt, asked if I bought the bikini(of course I had!), smiled and kissed me. God, I love this man.

Indecisiveness

Aaaah!!! I have hundreds and hundreds of images to go through...I keep looking and I can't decide which ones to use. I need a vacation and thank god it's only a week away.

I love him...

...with all my heart. He makes my world worth while. He is the one...the one who makes my heart race; the one who makes me blind of any other man; the one who gets me and knows how to handle me at my worst.

I love him and he loves me.

Thank you, God, for sending Paul Kelly :)

Amazing

My modeling venture began early this year and has come farther than I could ever imagine. Only a few months into it, I began getting paid for shoots...and now I have photographers asking if they can fly me to places like New York City, Toronto and California. I can't wait to actually go to these amazingly awesome places!! I feel like I am in disbelief...but I apparently made a really good decision when I didn't get another job after getting laid off. At this point, I can almost say that I do have a real job...Modeling :)

In this huge process of moving to the beach, the thought of getting a 'real' job had crossed my mind. A job like that would take up my entire week, when I would typically be shooting. I guess I am in luck with where we are moving...In Norfolk, if you work at the right bar, you make an average of $400 a night!! I would realistically only have to work 2-3 nights a week and be making an amazing amount of money. This would also allow me to go back to school and finish out my degree in a year :) And then I'll be able to finally start my business and get the loan I need to do it right. Everything is finally panning out and life is beyond amazing!

Confessions of a Shopaholic

Every once in a while I reinvent myself; changing the way way I dress, do my make up or even my hair style. You've gotta keep 'em on their toes, right? RIGHT!

So, it's about that time again and all I wanna do is go shopping to fill the gaps in my wardrobe and complete my new style. One problem...lack of money and boyfriend. They are linked so tightly right now that there's no way I could get away with spending the money I do have on anything right now. UGH! All because we are moving and going on vacation this month, money is super tight and he doesn't want me to go shopping. Doesn't he understand that a woman just isn't the same without retail therapy?! Apparently not. I bought two amazing pairs of shoes the other week since I was going to be in a fashion show...He was soo pissed but he got over it once he saw them. Lol

I had to go to the mall today to buy some new skivvies for some Zivity sets I am shooting tomorrow. He approved of that... but in my shopping excursion, I also found tons of things that I want to buy for myself. It took every fiber in body not to buy anything except what was needed for the photo shoot...FML

God, can you please fix this and give me a money tree??

The real me :)

If you are following this then you know me from my modeling portfolios spread over the internet...I was bored the other day waiting to go to the pool and had a photo shoot with myself ;) Lol

What a weekend!!! My set on Zivity.com is doing amazingly well and I'm feeling such an overwhelming sense of glory. Like I said in my previous post, it was a pretty conservative set compared to others on Zivity and I was kinda worried that it just wouldn't get the votes because of it. Apparently that isn't a problem!! People are LOVING it! YAY!!

Today I woke up and didn't realize it was Monday, the start to one of my busiest weeks yet. I still have to prepare for a HUGE shoot tomorrow down in VA Beach and I have a photographer who wants to meet with me today...Ugh! Don't get me wrong. I am absolutely thrilled with how far I have come with modeling and how nice it is to get paid on a regular basis . It's actually becoming a really good source of income. Woohoo!!

Busy Little Bee with a Purpose

Aaaah!! My first set on Zivity.com was FINALLY published today after two and half months of waiting. WTFrack? Only hours after being up, I have 17 votes. Not bad considering it's one of THE only sets that doesn't involve any nudity...and I'm damn proud of it. It's not that I have a problem with nudity. It's just not something I can do. Call me prude I guess. My goal is to bring sexy back to the way it used to be, when guys liked a little mystery. That's my purpose and my goal. My second set, as mentioned in my last post, is much sexier than the first. Dressed in my boyfriend's ginormous button down and a polka dot pair of boy shorts, I am posed as the devine temptress who is nothing short of mysterious. I can't wait for this set to be published.

I have three others in the making as well...let's just say one involves a camcorder, the other a deck of cards, and another strawberry syrup and whipped cream. Oooh la la...

I would highly recommend you join Zivity.com within the next month to see these sets ;)