Old Writing..."Journeys"

I have plenty of things that stand between me and the things that I desire. Like a dreamy swade and gold necklace, broken, I pick up the peices, and try to mend what is left behind. It's nothing between my love and I, but work. Work, work, work. I've learned that with responsibility, comes irresponsible people, who you just cannot rely on. It's hard. It's frustrating. For once in my life, I have money to live the life I want to live. Unfortunately, all of my time is taken up by this responsibility.

I was talking to my mom the other day, and she said....

Heather, I'm so happy for you. You are finally the girl that you originally were. The girl who, no matter what the circumstances, was happy-go-lucky. The girl who had the ability to turn any frown upside down. The girl who always knew right from wrong, and the one who always led the pack, with no inclination of doing so.

This sparked my mind...Why am I wasting all of my time on money?? I'm happy where I am, however, is it what I WANT? No. When I originally moved back to Richmond, I finally started my business, HD Marketing. I have about 5 people per week ask me how it's going. Each and every time I respond, well...it's going, but all I have time for is Cha Cha's. I've broken sales records for days, even months, at Cha Cha's. But is it what I WANT? No. How do I abandon the stability and go forth with my dreams?? This is the question I face today, tomorrow, and the rest of the days I continue with this job. When do I end this successful journey, and lead my own??

Believe me I can fly...

I want to lie in bed with him all day…

and search his body for scars and watch his mouth as he tells me the stories of they came to be. I want to kiss his freckles and run my fingers through his hair and I want my feet to find his when we sleep. I want to wake up with his arms around me and his face nuzzled in my neck. I want him to slowly tickle my back and my ribs and the insides of my arms while he tells me about the surf that day. I want him to brush the hair off my face and kiss my eyelids and tell me I’m beautiful and all he’s ever wanted. I want to fall in love with him. And I want him to fall in love with me. And I really don’t think that’s too much to ask.

I would typically say yes, that is too much to ask. However, I already have all of these things and never realized just how lucky I really was until now. Having each and every one of these little things is a blessing in itself. My god…It’s a dream come true.



Today I was away...he called three or more times just to say hi and ask if I was coming home to him tonight. When I finally decided to come home, he proceeded to call me three more times in that short little drive home from Richmond. Each time was to see how much longer it would take me to return to our quaint little home on the beach. This is just one of the little things that makes me love him more.

Help for Me; Help for You

I came across this 6 tips for self motivation and felt it necessary to share...

1. Have a cause.

A life without cause is a life without effect.
Unknown

2. Have a dream. A big dream.

Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.
Karen Ravn

3. Be hungry.

Wanting something is not enough. You must hunger for it. Your motivation must be absolutely compelling in order to overcome the obstacles that will invariably come your way.
Les Brown

4. Run your own race.

I do not try to dance better than anyone else. I only try to dance better than myself.
Mikhail Baryshnikov

5. Take one more step.

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
Winston Churchill

6. Let go of the past.

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could.
Ralph Waldo Emerson


Above all others you begin with this:

People who are unable to motivate themselves must be content with mediocrity, no matter how impressive their other talents.
Andrew Carnegie

The small things...

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.